voodoo vince

i didnt know kids like that went to my highschool...
i supposed i probably missed out.
i feel like im missing out now...
i want to play with garth, socially...though i love just being alone with him, i still want to play with him AND others...sigh.

tonight we watched The Machinist.
reeeeeeally good flick.
a momento-esque quality, but creepier.
and christian bale is annorexic, you get to stare at his insides pertruding through his skin for the entire moive.
what a turn on.

tomorrow i think garth and i will check out that rockstock over in old town.
i really dont want to pay a 5 dollar cover just to go stand in a field and see shitty local bands.
hell i didnt even go to bumstock.
however im super desparate for social activity.
maybe something good will happen.
i dont think we will go until the late afternoon when things cool down.


i need sleep more than anything right now.
tonight garths parents stopped in on their way to camp...they took us to the chocolate grille.
i had something with breaded tomatoes and zuchinni, which would have been good except the pasta that came with it was in a smoked cream sauce.
after my first bite i threw up in my mouth.
it reminded me of smoked meat.
anything smoked has that distinct flavor, and well it has been 4 years since ive tasted/smelt that...im cringing thinking about it right now.
it has made me sick all evening....i cant imagine what my body would do if it were real meat and not just something to flavor it.

i made a nifty screen...but i have nothing to print it on.....